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Life's Greatest Lessons

2009-10-12T23:58:00.000-05:00

Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:"

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
25. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ''In five years, will this matter?".
26. Always choose life.
27. Forgive everyone everything.
28. What other people think of you is none of your business.
29. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.
30. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
31. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
32. Believe in miracles.
33. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
34. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
35.. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
36. Your children get only one childhood.
37. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
38. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere..
39. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd
grab ours back.
40. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
41. The best is yet to come.
42. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
43. Yield.
44. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift

10-0 Baby!!

2008-11-08T17:29:00.002-06:00

ACU finished our season today at Shotwell Stadium by defeating Midwestern State University in a smashdown. It was the first time in 30 years that we've had a perfect season. The only time in history we've had a perfect season was the same season we won the National Championship. We're still ranked #2 in the Nation for all of DII football.

We'll start the second round of the playoffs two weeks from today with home field advantage. Get ready for Florence, AL on Saturday Dec. 13, 2008!

Go Wildcats!

here's life...

2008-09-17T18:55:00.005-05:00

Yes, I know...it's been a ridiculously long time since I've written anything on here. The blog has definitely gotten the shaft over the past few months. I got swamped with work at Impact this summer and didn't have any time to spare. This trickled over to being at home and working lots in August, which has then brought me to almost 4 weeks of school being done before I realized that I've neglected this (obviously) vital part of life. So here goes an update of how things are for me...

College- School is in full swing and 16 hours has treated my nicely so far. All my classes (minus one) are on Tuesdays & Thursdays. That's 8-3. I've got an 8 o'clock on MWF, which keeps me having to get out of bed at the same time each day (which is usually about 7:40). I'm in a marketing class which I love, and a philosophy class that I don't understand. But it's fun an

d not a terrible schedule, so who could complain.

Work- I'm still working at the Friendship House for right now. So much has changed there and it's really different, but I'm still a part of it, at least for a while. We'll see how things go. I miss how things used to be, but it's still about loving people and I'm still about loving people too. Pray for all of this if you will. There is a new kid that I think God's placed him there because he needs someone to count on and be there for him.

Church- I love Southern Hills. My church here is rockin and I love my community there. I've gotten really involved with the campus ministry there recently and it's such a blessing. I feel like I've finally started to be used by God in ways that I've never been before. Such a good group.

Not Chile- Perhaps you've heard, but Chile is no longer on the horizon for me, at least for as far as I can see. I spoke with the team and shared with them what's been on my heart. It was really tough to make this decision, but I could feel God tugging at my heart to do something else. What is that something else? Not too sure, but I know there is something just right for me coming around the bend.

Grad School- This is the season for applying to grad schools. Here's what I'm looking at so far. Masters in Social Work at: University of Houston, Baylor, University of Texas (sssss), and University of Texas at Arlington. Masters of Urban Planning: Texas A&M. Masters of Public Service & Administration: Texas A&M. First step, need to take the GRE before I can apply! That's only 180 dollars.

Birthday- I'm 22. Isn't that weird? I feel like I'm an old man. And I'm also getting more and more gray hairs. Awesome. Got to go home last weekend and spend some time with the family.

Houston- I've been thinking alot about those in Houston affected by Ike. I think I might need

to make a trip down there soon and help out if I can. I miss them! Keep praying.

I guess that's all. Nothing much new here. Just going through the motions and enjoying my last year at ACU. Keep in touch and have a blessed day!

Inspiring Speech for YOU!

2008-09-03T13:14:00.001-05:00

Check this out. Pretty incredible!

http://www.dallasisd.org/keynote.htm

VBS Week One!

2008-07-12T10:37:00.005-05:00

This is just half of my kids for the summer.

Well, we just finished our first official week of Impact VBS 2008. It has sure been a crazy ride, these past few days. How can I describe how this past week went? I think the best way is to list a bunch of words that are on my mind. Some of these include but are not limited to the following: wonderful, tiring, long, intense, exciting, crazy, busy, exhausting, never-ceasing, amazing, surprising, testing, and blessed.

So much has happened over the past week that I want to share, but I know as soon as I finish this post, there will be an infinite amount of things to write that I will have forgotten. The week began at 6:30 Monday morning when I rolled out of bed in excitement of what this day would hold. The first thoughts that passed through my head were these: Father, I need you. Stay with me this day. This definitely set the tone for the coming days.

The Irvington Village Bus!

When the kids arrived, they were thrilled to be at VBS. Many of them haven't been around Impact for nearly a year...VBS last summer. Can I tell you a secret? Well, I was WAY nervous on Monday to get in front of the kids. I don't know why. I do this stuff all the time. As I made announcements and got them pumped about the day, I quickly fell into my groove and it became natural.

Some of them were "newscasters" at the Museum.

We had our first successful field trip on Tuesday afternoon to the Children's Museum of Houston. It could not have gone better. They had a blast. We made it back safely with every kid. What a feat! The day became longer as my interns taught kids Tuesday evening for the mid-week Hispanic worship service. They were troopers for making it through this 14 hour day.

Damion & Cory. These boys are BAD. I love em.

Wednesday was a tough one. There were a few moments during the morning that I thought I might not make it through. The lack of sleep and high-stress atmosphere of being in charge left me feeling slightly frazzled. But thankfully, God provided a sense of peace and energy that got me going.

Diamond...bein all cute

Thursday afternoon brought us some rainy skies that prevented us from going to this cool park downtown for our field trip. But we made it work and stayed at the building to watch The Land Before Time. This was an all-time favorite of mine. By Thursday night, I could hardly see straight. Needless to say, I slept in yesterday morning and today (which means about 8:30 or 9, ha).

Yesterday was SO awesome. I got up and went to the movies with one of the youth groups that helped us from Memphis. Then I went to a friend's apartment to sit by the pool and read/get some sun. Then finally, I met Deanna out in the Woodlands to go to a nice relaxing dinner. It was a perfect day to get refreshed. You've gotta have those when you go, go, go all week with these awesome and crazy kids.

Keep praying. We cannot do what we do without you.

broken buses, bubbling beaches & birthday boys

2008-06-29T19:39:00.004-05:00

For any of you who are interested in following up with how Mike is doing...he came back the next day with a huge smile on his face. He was happy to be at reading camp and seemed to have a much better day following his possible trouble at home. Thanks for your prayers.

The past few days have been a definite blessing to me. Tuesday and Wednesday were family nights at Impact. Tuesday was spent with some 100 Spanish speaking families as we introduced our summer program and what was in store. Wednesday night was expected to have decreased involvement, but God blew us away with a packed house. I thought I might only have two or three families from my neighborhood to pick up, but I ended up with two packed van loads and had to make two trips.

Broken Buses: On the way home Wednesday night, we decided to take a bus, rather than make two trips to take families home. What a great idea, right? No. Bad idea. Very bad idea. To start things off, our bus stalled as we were politely singing "Jesus Loves Me" on the bus. We fixed it quickly and thought we were low on fuel. A few minutes later, we get a call from Dennis that his bus is broken over by Minute Maid Park. His was overheated as we spent about an hour working it our. God provided a water hose spout directly next to where he was broken down at. Thank goodness that we were able to mend the radiator hose and get back to the church safely. Needless to say, it was a long day (and week for that matter).

Beach: Friday could not have come soon enough. Myself, a few interns, and some teens took the early part of the day to relax in Galveston in the muddy waters. There were a lot of waves and it was free, so there was no right to complain. The night ended by spending the evening in Clear Lake with a few old friends from ACU.

Birthday Boys: On Saturday, Gabby and I took SeDarious and his two brothers Damion and DeAngelo to Zuma Fun Center, which is basically the same thing as Celebration Station. They had a blast. It was great to see them riding Go-Karts, doing the Bumper Boats, and attempting to play mini-golf. I have a feeling that we are starting to spoil them. But they need it. Who will show them that they are worth a day out if someone doesn't take them? Damion just found out he is being held back in school for the second time in a row. He needs some serious prayers as he learns and grows and acts out during his hard times.

Friends: On a side note, I was SO glad to spend the weekend with some very good friends. Cassie came into town and I we got to see Kelly and Julie. I also got to go to First Colony CofC this morning and was refreshed to be worshiping with good friends in a "close-to-home" way.

This week marks our official start to VBS. We'll spend the next 4 days working on throwing everything together before we get about 400 kiddos for the rest of the summer. I'll definitely be needing prayers for energy, patience, leadership, communication, rest, and joy as we work together to create something lasting for these children.

Mike and his mom

2008-06-24T11:31:00.004-05:00

Yesterday was a tough one. Leaving for the afternoon is not always an easy thing for our children. For many of them, church is the only safe place they can run to and count on. Some of them have no consistency in their lives and very little positive relationships to turn to. For Mike, reading camp has been his safe haven over the past couple weeks.

As we were leaving on our van routes, all 15 kids were loaded and ready to go...except for one. Mike didn't want to get on. In fact, he refused to get on. First he wouldn't put his shoes on because there was a little glitter in them. Then he started getting fired up about a little glue and glitter that had gotten on his shirt.

After a few minutes of trying to figure out why this was such a big deal (and it wasn't about being OCD or anythng) he began to cry. Tears began falling as we coaxed him toward the van. A few feet futher, he planted himself on the ground and started balling. I talked to him for a bit, and figured out that he was not going to go home with anything that caused his clothes to appear dirty.

"My mom told me that I would be in big trouble if I get my clothes dirty." We cleaned the little guy up. The glitter was gone, and there wasn't a remnant of anything dirty. This still didn't satisfy Mike's peace of mind. I promised to talk to his mom and that it would be ok. He cried all the way home.

"Are you Mike's mom?"... "Yes, what did he do!?" I spoke with his mom and told her what a great kid she has. I told her she should be proud of him because he does such a great job and is such a bright little dude.

How scary it must be to go home in fear of loved ones. How do 8 year olds endure such hardship and trials of abuse? Surely God has provided these little ones with a faith and hope that goes much farther than this world. They are already stronger than I might ever be to keep moving on each day. Pray for Mike. Pray for the infinite amount of nameless others without a hope.

Here's a picture from last Friday. I took SeDarious, Paul, and DeAngelo out to Kemah to eat some lunch and ride some rides. We had a blast.

Beginnings

2008-06-20T09:47:00.007-05:00

What a week it has been. I sometimes forget when I leave here how busy it truly is all the time. It seems like there is never a dull moment around Impact during the summers. Everything sort of speeds by out of control when we start the each week. I have been blessed during my time here already and it has quickly become a home to me again. I love these people so much and the opportunities I get to love and be loved.Over the past two weeks we have done quite a bit. We got our interns about 10 days ago and they have all been working extra hard since then. They're a great group and I'm confident that our teamwork will be outstanding. We've mainly been focusing our efforts on a two-week reading camp that we are smack dab in the middle of. Each afternoon, about 50 children come to strengthen their literacy skills by participating in a Charlotte's Web themed camp. They seem to love it.My big role starts in one week when we begin our mega prep for 4 weeks of VBS. I'm really excited about this part of the summer. On Wednesday all of the youth ministers, children's ministers, and interns went out to Cypress to do a ropes challenge course. We had an absolute blast! It was so great to see the way our teens stepped up to tackle each of the tasks. We did two high elements, which were a gigantic zip line and a huge swing. Needless to say, I am still very sore and achy from doing belle all day.It's easy to get caught up in the routine of ministry and just to go trough the motions. However, yesterday something happened that humbled me unlike anything before. I pick up one of the high school girls who is interning for VBS this summer. She doesn't live too far from where I am staying so it's not a big deal. Yesterday was the last day I will pick her up because her sister will be in town to do it in the coming weeks. It's important to remember that high school interns get paid once a week, and today was payday.

So as we are pulling onto her street, she says to me, "Jeremy, I'm going to give you something and you have to promise to not say no." So I say OK and she goes on to pull out two $10 dollar bills to me. She said, "It's for the gas". My immediate reaction was [impolitely] say, "No" which I had just promised not to do. But I caught myself, and let her know what it meant to me that she would do that.

On the way home, I couldn't help but get emotional. I had just experienced a true gift from the depths of someone's heart. I felt like I had never been served like this before. She took the time and thought to give ME something. It was a punch in the gut from above that it is not all about me and what I am trying to do for people. It is about what we do for each other. I'm reminded of the widow that gave two shekels because it was all she could give, but it was the richest and most savory offering to God. Marilyn's gift to me is sweeter than anything I could receive from the wealth of the world.

This was definitely my lesson for the week and maybe even the summer. It put everything in perspective. In other news...a ninth grader whose mom and sister are in a women's and children's shelter is staying with me for a few days. He didn't really have a place to go, so my "family" here was gracious enough for me to take him in for a bit after he's been with a different intern for a few days. He really just needs to know that things will turn out alright and there is some consistency amidst being without a home.

Well, I think I'm going to take a little bit to run some errands and then take SeDarious out for his birthday. Some of the interns went to the Space Center today, so maybe we'll go there. For now, have a blessed day and have some peace.

summer in [humid] houston

2008-06-08T18:16:00.002-05:00

I can't believe summer has already come and settled in. The last month, for me, was filled with the busyness of springtime graduations for Jacqueline and many of our friends from home. It seemed like there was a party or celebration or blessing every night of each weekend. It was a nice reminder of what church is and the kind of family that only God can bring together.

I write this entry from the Winter's home in Houston. I could not have asked for a better place to call my home for the next two months. I have the whole upstairs to myself (right now) and there is a Starbucks like half a mile away. I'm all set.

Tomorrow we start "work". For those of you who are out of the loop, I will serve as VBS Director for the summer. There is much to be done. We spent last week in several neighborhoods searching for more kids to sign up for this month-long experience. We'll get our interns on Wednesday and begin the official start of the summer for Impact's children's ministry.

Today I taught Kindergarten and was reminded of how church is an all day affair. I didn't get to lunch until 1 and then didn't get home until 3. Whoa. But I was blessed to have Tyree, DaJanae, Sedarious, Diamond, and Kiara sit with me at church. I'll try and get some pictures together soon!

Here's what YOU can do!: PRAY. Pray that I will make myself available for my fullest abilities this summer. Pray that I will stay focused on the core of what we are doing: Loving people and sharing God with them. Pray that I know my limits. Pray that I have a positive attitude. Pray that I don't stress. You can also send any financial assistance to me that you might have available. Kidding. But seriously.

That's all for now. I miss you if you're not in Houston. Call me. I have plenty of time to talk. There's no cable here. Very refreshing. Peace.

i'm a senior!

2008-05-09T10:29:00.002-05:00

Just thought I would let you know. I lack 26 hours until I'm done with college. At least this part anyway. That's all.

i like aggies

2008-04-27T23:21:00.004-05:00

I'm not really sure why, but whenever I spend time with Aggies, it makes me feel good. There is just something about them that is difficult to find anywhere else. I can't help but wonder how life would be if I had chosen to walk down that path. It's so good to maintain a connection over the miles of friendship though. I find it funny how God's people can stay within such a deep network of connection with others no matter where they are on the planet.
So tonight, a group of AFCer's came up to Abilene to share some skits during the 9 o'clock devotional on campus. It was pretty dang awesome. I got to share in some fun memories with many people who I hadn't seen in quite some time. Afterwards, we talked and talked and made plans to do more stuff in the coming weeks.

In other areas of my life...I am still planning to serve as co-director of VBS at Impact Church in Houston. I decided tonight that I'm staying with Tim and Jenny Winter. I hear they are a pretty neat family and it'll be nice to be around another young family all summer. Plus they live close to the church and in a pretty cool neighborhood.

I'm still working with the Friendship House here in Abilene. The past few weeks have been insane. I planned a going away bar-b-que for the Fletchers that seemed to be a big hit. All the families came out to share their memories and send them off with a blessing and thanks for their hard work in the neighborhood. We had a crazy Mom's Night Out and Teen Day Out this past weekend that also went wonderfully. I'm really starting to get feel the emotions of Lee and Steph's move that approaches. I'll hopefully still be there as we all transition to a new family in the house. Ah, sad.

This is the last week of class! I can't believe it! It has gone by so fast. I do not feel overwhelmed for some strange reason. God has really stood by my side this semester as I have had an overbooked schedule. Thanks to him, and only him, I've made it through 6 long semesters. Senior year here I come.

Other than that, I am preparing myself for some really tough goodbyes. It's gonna be horrific to say bye to several friends who are departing at the end of the term for other places around the world as they follow God's guidance for his service. I get to go to Nebraska with a friend for a few days to help him move. Never been there. I also get to stay a few weeks in Abilene with the FH crew to make some summer plans and help them clean out and pack up. With all of this, comes the typical goodbyes we make before a break.

Emotions+Stress=Potential Tears

Spring Break 2008

2008-03-24T09:27:00.013-05:00

Last week my roommates and I had some incredible fun. It was such a blast to just be guys and let our guards down for a few days. What a blessing it was to take a little break in the middle of a busy semester of studies, work, and the busyness of everyday life. Personally, I was rejuvenated because I took a sabbatical from thinking about anything that wasn't this trip and these guys. Things can get cluttered in life, but taking a true break has given me the energy I need to finish out the semester. I'll leave you with a few pictures to capture the adventure we experienced together on this trip of a lifetime!

Viva Las Vegas!

2008-03-14T09:50:00.004-05:00

Today, 3 of my roommates and another friend and I are packing up the car to head to the great states of Arizona and Nevada for Spring Break. I do love the American West. It could not come at a better time. We're spending a few relaxing and adventurous days in Sedona where there are bike trails, hiking trails, and some beautiful scenery!

While we're there, we'll hit up the trails (we're taking 5 bikes!), spend some time outdoors, go see the majesty of the Grand Canyon, head to Phoenix to see the Rangers play a Spring Training game, and finally, head to Las Vegas for a night on the town! \

We are stoked and cannot wait. We'll be on the road today for about 14 hours, so pray that God watches over us and keeps us safe. I hope each and every one of you has a relaxing and FUN break as we will also!

Peace.

bored and wasting time

2008-02-19T19:37:00.003-06:00

Here I sit, wasting yet another Tuesday evening. I often wonder why the ACU Social Work department manages to place the most boring classes during the evenings. "Research Methods for Social Work" is the title of the course. It has turned me to conduct a bit of my own online research of church/friend blogs, potential internships, and job opportunities for the future (in social work of course). Therefore, I feel as though I am staying the course. This is appropriate justification, right?

I found out tonight that, though I have never met him, Larry James is one of my heroes. Check out his blog and see what's going on in community redevelopment in Central Dallas. It's pretty inspiring to see the needs of our own backyards and how so many have risen to the occasion of extending hope to a city. Again, I am revisiting question I've so often asked..."Why have I never contributed to the work of Central Dallas Ministries?" Maybe you have a thorn of question such as this sticking into your side. I think I'll pursue CDM as a potential site for my internship next Spring.

I also visited the website for Teach for America. This organization gives young people the chance to change the lives of inner-city and underprivileged youth around the country. Upon graduating from college, you live and teach in a community that are in need of increasing education potential. Americorps takes care of setting you up with housing, finances, schools, and subjects. I think this is truly a great opportunity to make a mark on the world. Maybe I can do this for a while instead of grad school. (Especially since the professor talking in class right now is currently motivating me to drop out of school altogether...or at least for the night, haha).

In other areas of my life:

Still taking 16 hours. Thoroughly enjoying most of them, with the exception of Research and Practicum Seminar. We're talking about "atonement theory" (the how's and reasons for being saved) in my Bible class that's really blowing my mind. I am becoming interested in art history (my 8 o'clock class)...why is that?
Still banking 12 hours per week at the Mental Health internship. Today I went to the Juvenile Detention Center. Last week I went on some home visits. I'm still learning al ot, though also realizing I would rather be doing some ministry with this social work stuff.
Still working at the Friendship House. The Fletcher's (the family that currently live there and operate it) are in their transition "out" of the house. It's kind of sad and weird. I'm prayerful that I will still be used and feel a part of this ministry after they leave. The kids are still crazy as ever and seem to love being around. I started leading a bible study for the teens on Tuesday afternoons. They write in journals and spill out their thoughts each week. It's intense.
I have recently begun co-leading a small group (Lifegroup) that'll begin meeting at my casa next Sunday for food, discussion, and prayer time. Again, great experiences in discipleship.
I'm looking at getting a puppy (newborn lab). I think it's a great idea. I have always wanted a dog, though it will take a lot of work to train it at first. I think I'll name it Toby if I get it.
Me and 4 other guys are headed to Arizona in 3 weeks for Spring Break. We finally get to have a real road trip. We're going to the Grand Canyon, Las Vegas, and doing some cool recreation activities in the city we're staying in. I'm stoked! (and will be broke after).
I don't know if I mentioned this last time, but I'm directing VBS at Impact in Houston this summer. I can't wait to do it. I hope that some of the kiddos remember me. We'll see.

That's all (and wayyyy to much for now). Hope you have a peaceful day!

RIP Dell

2008-02-15T08:55:00.003-06:00

Welp, I've converted. My Dell has been giving me trouble for the past several months. The battery lasts about 10 minutes, Word takes about 5 to open, and it started to freeze up if I opened more than 3 programs at the same time. So I began the pursuit for a new computer over Christmas Break.

I let the possibilities mellow for a couple months as I did some looking around. After lots and lots of deliberation, one week ago I made the decision to get this nice pretty MacBook and I love it! I got a refurbished one that is fully loaded for top performance. I saved around 400 dollars with a student discount and the refurbished discount.

Using this Mac is much different than what I'm used to, but already I am realized how easy to use it is. It will be awesome for sharing pictures and videos with all of you in the future! I hope that you are blessed today amidst the frigid temperatures outside! Peace.

We are Family

2008-01-28T09:06:00.000-06:00

Well, it's difficult to put into words how this past weekend went, but perhaps the best thing to say is....WOW! The team that I am on to go to Chile kicked off the initial part of our official training process with an awesome retreat. There was much to be learned and fun to be had. We had house church on Sunday with a great breakfast together.

It was such a wonderful blessing to all be together as a group as we continue to get to know each other. We are so very excited about what the future holds for us as we simply seek to live out God's plan to love people. Pray for us as we patiently and eagerly step out into unfamiliar areas.Here's us acting crazy...from left to right....me on top of Reid Overall, Sarah Lukkason, Deanna Meredith looking naughty, Chad Lukkason holding Wes's leg, Lauren Sutton laughing uncontrollably, Ellen Shutt stretching out in front of Wes Shutt.

It has begun

2008-01-18T09:25:00.000-06:00

Well, it's official, the new semester has begun, and I can feel it. This has probably felt like one of the longest weeks I can remember for a long time. On Tuesday night I laid down and thought "Is this really just the second day??" haha.

However, it's such a blessing to get back to seeing old frields across campus, having people over, and catching up with the group. I love getting back into a routine. That seems to be where I function best. Sometimes I get a little too into my routine and get busy, but so far, it has been wonderful.

Here is an update of the current status of my life:

This semester I'm taking 16 hours. On Monday, it felt a little overwhelming as I went to 3 classes (I had just one on MWF last fall). All of my classes are 400 level, which basically means they're senior level and really tough. I think I'm going to be very challenged, but I also think I'm going to learn a ton of stuff.

For my social work degree I have to do a field practicum at a local agency. I was placed at Betty Hardwick Center MHMR. I get 3 hours credit for doing 10 hours per week there (150 semester total). Therefore, I am technically in class or at this internship for 27 hours per week...whew! I know. It's going to be incredible to work with the children and teens at this agency though. More to come as we go...

I'm still "working" at the Friendship House. I love it. It's perfect ministry for me right now and it's fulfulling to be used as I'm in Abilene to gain a deeper understanding of the ways I can serve God with what he's given me. We haven't started the afterschool program yet, but it will gear up in a week or so.

Hello new job, goodbye old one: That's right....I stopped working a couple night shifts at the dorm and am now "instructor-in-training" for Everfit...an outdoor fitness and group personal training program. I've gotten up at the ungodly hour of 5:15 3 days this week to workout and it's doing me pretty well right now. I'll just be doing one morning per week beginning next week.

I've decided to go to Houston this summer and direcet their summer-long VBS and summer reading program. I'm SO excited for what this experience will mean and how God will once again open my eyes to His people in Houston, TX.

Oh one more thing...I'm joined a team of good friends planning to do ministry in Concepcion, Chile in a few years. We've just begun the "official" training for that, so we'll see how that goes! I'm excited to see how God works on this path. More to come on this as well.

Peace!

New Year's Resolutions

2008-01-03T20:22:00.000-06:00

Boy, oh boy it's been a while since my last post, hasn't it! If there really are still any readers out there, I express my sincerest apologies. I loved Christmas, although it was busy and crazy as always. I hope yours was also filled with joy, food, family, rest, and relaxation.

Because it is a new year, I've come up with several things that I'd like to either change or begin in 2008. It's such a good feeling to start fresh and have the ability to feel a sense of accomplishment as our calendar rolls over again. Here goes...

Exercise 3 days per week, every week
Read the whole Bible
Be more decisive
Train and run a half marathon and a full marathon before the summer
Have 30 minutes of queit time and prayer time each day
Journal more
Eat out only when necessary
Go through my cell phone and call the people I haven't talked to in over a year
Limit my text messaging
Love more
Visit another foreign country...maybe a place in Africa
Learn Spanish
Stay committed to my campus minsity and lifegroup
Walk to campus, never drive
Be a positive influence on my roommates
Maintain a pure heart
Use my soccer shoes for the first time in the U.S.
Be joyful about every part of life, even the hard times
Kick my caffeine addiction so I can enjoy a cup of coffee
Hang out with kids without feeling like I need to for work
Eliminate negative vocabulary
Worry less, pray more
Study for my classes even when it seems pointless
Make my faith a reality, not just sticking with words and big talk
Be real...with myself and with others

I'm really going to try and make these work this year. Sometimes I say I want to do things and never get around to it. If you know me and have any to add- bring 'em on! Peace

here i go again...

2007-11-28T10:17:00.000-06:00

Rather than posting some of my own words this morning, I am going to listen to the word of God and for once really soak it in.

"But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you." Matt. 6:6

"After leaving them, he went up on a mountainside to pray." Mark 6:46

"So what shall I do? I will pray with my spirit, but I will also pray with my mind; I will sing with my spirit, but I will also sing with my mind." 1 Cor. 14:15

"After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. When evening came, he was there alone." Matt. 14:23

"Why are you sleeping?" he asked them. "Get up and pray so that you will not fall into temptation."Luke 22:46

"Finally, brothers, pray for us that the message of the Lord may spread rapidly and be honored, just as it was with you." 2 Thes. 3:1

Here's a song that I'm currently listening to:

When everything you love
And everything that's good slips away
When everyone you trust
And everyone that's close becomes afraid
When all the things you fear
And everything you hate becomes too real
When all your life is torn in two
Rest in truth

When the world is on your shoulders
Let Him in
When the world is on your shoulders
Let Him in

When the bitterness you hide
Slips into your blood and controls your life
When you've fought and fought and tried
But everything's a ruse
Rest in truth

When the world is on your shoulders
Let Him in
When your heart has been abandoned
Let Him in

When the World is on
When all hope has gone
When love that's been
Let Him in, Let Him in

My heart is free...

First Impressions of the Past...

2007-11-07T21:37:00.001-06:00

Tonight I spent a little time skimming through my journal from the summer. It's funny to look back and see inside your mind through a bunch of words. Speaking of words...I think it's important to write things down so we don't forget them. However, I am a firm believer in speaking these words because they have no meaning if they are not shared. Therefore, I have decided to share just a few of my excited journal entries from the summer. Hopefully they as encouraging to you as they are to me.

June 7, 2007 6:04am:
"Well, I'm not sure if I'm ready yet, but I sure am excited! I'm sitting here on the plane watching the sun begin to rise over the Andes. It's a beautiful sight that keeps getting better as the minutes go by. There's a map on the screen that shows our flight progress and it looks like we were over the ocean most of the night. I have to admit that leaving was bittersweet. I'm very excited and anticipatory about this journey, but it's always difficult to leave friends and family. As I left, I prayed for God's protection and guidance of this trip. I can't wait to see what comes!"

June 16, 2007 12:00pm:
"I suppose I should recap the last week so I don't forget any of the memorable details of this trip. So here goes...When I first arrived at the Santiago airport, I was so excited, yet so unsure of what this summer will hold. As I left the airport and went through customs, it became real to me that I was in this new place that was nothing like I had ever seen before. It was such a strange feeling to be in a place where Spanish is being spoken all around you and everyone looks just like one another. Turns out, the Chilean National Soccer Team was behind me in customs and I had no clue until I left. Way to go Jeremy."

June 25, 2007 10:52am:
"Well, we made it to Peru! It's much different here. The people look very different and seem to have a unique presence about themselves. My first impressions of Lima were more surprising that I'd expected. The drive to our apartment from the airport was through shantytowns where the poverty level obviously ran high. The streets are surrounded with tiny houses or buildings that barely look sturdy enough to stand. We're going to be staying in La Molina, a borough of town that is apparently middle to upper class. So far, I've been more tired that anything else because of the lack of rest. We got in from Chile at 4:30am on Sunday morning and went to church at 9am. The people of the congregation were extremely welcoming! Lots of people were very eager to learn about my home and to extend their welcome to me. It was a good start to what I hope will come. The church in La Victoria is a little lower in class that where we are currently living, but we hope to spend lots of time there."

June 27, 2007 1:05pm:
"God I pray right now for my heart and for my attitude. Let it be hopeful and open to what plans you have for us here. Allow me to put my trust in you and be confident in the ways you work and will work. Bring out the desires of my heart and let them be a burning passion for you. Please allow me to find ways to share your love with those around me this summer. That's why I'm here. I desperately want to be in love with you and to feel it right now. Thank you for your blessing and approval upon my life and for giving me so much I don't deserve. I love you. Watch over and guide me."

Choo Choo!!

2007-11-01T22:21:00.000-05:00

What a week! And still more to go! It's not very often that we spend hours and hours preparing for a block party, but this week has just been one of those weeks. Yesterday was the Second Annual Friendship House Fall Festival. There was food, there were families, there was fun! Tons of people came out to help with this celebration of good weather and community spirit. I believe I was at the Friendship House for 13 straight hours, but it was well worth it to see the beauty one another coming together in good spirits. Thanks to everyone who made it possible and especially Team Lima for your hard work!

This week will conclude with a Trivia Night Fundraiser benefiting Connecting Caring Communities. People from all over the community (hopefully) will come have some fun answering trivia questions, having food from Starbucks, Domino's, Buffalo Wild Wings, & Chic-fil-a, and also helping out CCC a bit with their presence. Pray that people come and it goes as well as planned!

Other than that, I am anxiously seeking a confirmation to the decision I am making with Conce and the future. I have spent most of the semester looking for God and what he would have of me. Honestly, it's not been the easiest process because it involves so many factors. I just take things one step at a time and pray that I am continuing to follow God's will. Thanks for the support and guidance that so many of you have generously provided me.

Richly Blessed

2007-10-18T00:04:00.000-05:00

The past week has surely been a blessing to me and to many others. It's hard for me to explain just what's going on as far as the future goes, but one thing is certain- things are happening, some big things...

First of all, I got to meet the famous Deanna (in person, for real this time!). I've spent the past year and a half hearing about her dreams and talking some on the phone, but we got to actually spend some good time together this past weekend. She's a load of fun and has a heart that's eager to share good news with others.

Next, I got to meet the Chad and Sarah Lukkason. They are a couple at Oklahoma Christian that are looking at grad school at ACU and possibly at partnering with "the team" to Chile in the future. It seems like they have much to offer in terms of sharing some good news.

Finally, I discovered some incredible news from back home in G-town. My home church, Saturn Road, does a big fundraiser for our annual missions funds. Each year a goal is set to reach in order to support missions throughout the coming year. This year the goal was $500,000 big ones. I know, crazy and bold right? Well guess what...God graciously provided a whopping $631,041 dollars for the work of His kingdom this year. This week has left me silent at the work of God in these few powerful ways. The faithfulness of our Father has awed me and humbled me.

I believe God knows what He's doing. It's not by chance that these events have occurred simultaneously in the same weekend. I am seeking to understand what exactly God would have of me, though the more I learn, the more I believe it's already been clearly placed before me. Now all that's left to do is continued and constant prayer. Thanks to God for the beauty of the ways in which He works.

Friendship House

2007-10-10T12:50:00.000-05:00

Last night was one of the best night's I've had in a long time. Lee and I got to spend the evening with some of the Dad's from the neighborhood having some good food at Buffalo Wild Wings, and then showing our skills at the bowling alley. Hearing about the lives of these men made my heart tender as we engaged one another's lives in a "chill" way. What a blessing!

Take a few moments and watch this video about what the Friendship House is all about. Hopefully you will experience some of the passion that lives there.

Racism in Housing: our history

2007-09-27T23:48:00.000-05:00

Here are a few questions that absolutely fascinate me and that for the life of me I cannot fully find the answer to:

How does urban sprawl so perfectly move from the city center outward?
How has suburbia come to be what it is today?
Why do people willingly segregate themselves?
What are people most afraid of in their communities?
What does it take to make a difference in our cities?
What will happen to all the poor people as the rich flock back to the urban centers from the suburbs and tear down their houses?

So this week I've done quite a bit of thinking about typical North American cities and communities. Today I had the privilege of viewing a movie in my Cultural Diversity class about the construction of post-WWII cities. It had a great deal to offer in the field of racism and class status that influenced where new housing was being established during this time to accommodate such a large influx of primarily white families. Because the new home market was booming, the most logical place to plan neighborhoods was on the outskirts of town. What a great day for everyone. Families could purchase a cheap note on a house and pay it off with reasonable credit for up to 30 years, right?

Unfortunately what we didn't get taught in history class was that during this time, the FHA (Federal Housing Administration) intentionally adopted a racist policy in its official documents that prevented anyone of color from being eligible for such home loans. Therefore, there was virtually no way that African Americans could purchase a home anywhere remotely close to the new, white "suburbs" that were coming to exist.

What was the justification for such discriminatory policy?

From the FHA underwriting manual of 1934: "if a neighborhood is to retain stability, it is necessary that properties shall continue to be occupied by the same social and racial classes." Blacks were forced into remaining mainly in concentrated public housing projects in the inner cities to prevent "problems" for the white neighborhoods.

It was all good business according to the Realtors. People wanted the luxuries of a new home, and were willing to pay for them. It wasn't so much that the common person was a racist, it was that there was a governmental protection on the current state of economic growth that no one wanted to halt by throwing in racial diversity.

It gets worse...

What makes the year 1968 significant? This was the year that The Fair Housing Act was enacted that prohibited discrimination based on the sale, rental, and financing of dwellings based on race, color, national origin, religion, sex, and familial status. This is very interesting to me because of my own family history.

My dad and his family were raised in Pleasant Grove, which if you know Dallas, is just outside of Loop 12, the first loop in the strategically planned highway system of many Texas cities. My dad's family, along with about 6 other families living on the same street suddenly decided that it was time to move to Garland, which is just outside the city's second loop, Interstate 635. This was the case all over the nation.

Want to take a guess as to what year this occurred?

1969. The year after the Fair Housing Act was put into place.

As soon as it was suspected that blacks might be moving close, masses of people put their houses on the market. As soon as one person "sold out" it was a neighborhood wide-turned nationwide domino effect. Property values went down when African Americans moved in, as people protected their dearest asset, their home, and moved away.

I was born and raised in Garland not far from where they moved to, though there are two other loops outside this location. My family is a product of what occurred in the racist housing market of the 1950's and 1960's. My dad's not afraid to tell me of how his family left when "they started busing blacks in and letting them move next door."

It's so strange that as I would not consider myself a racist, I reap the benefits a racist past of white privilege in this society where whiteness means power.

People continue to move further and further away from what used to be considered the suburbs. People run in fear of what they do not understand. It's likely that the rich, the white are more fearful of what is coming from our neighbors to the South. It looks like this cycle will continue as many of my friends were raised farther than me from the center of Big D where the newer developments are.

You might be surprised to know that the newest development north of Dallas (where most economic growth occurs) is actually closer to the Oklahoma/Texas line than it is to downtown Dallas. And yes, people are commuting from there.

What will it take to change? When will segregation actually be part of the history and not part of the present?

Now is there any doubt as to why there are "ghettos" or "bad parts of town"?

The Dance of Life

2007-09-26T10:34:00.000-05:00

A close friend of mine added a link to this video on his blog earlier this month. This video left me with chills at how true to life it really is. It perfectly shows how so many of us feel in our relationship with God. Please take 5 minutes to experience the power of this video.

Missing Peru

2007-09-26T00:25:00.000-05:00

Tonight has reminded me of how much my heart goes out to my family and friends in Peru. For spending such little time there, I long to know how each of my friends is doing on their walk lately. I often find my mind drifting to thoughts of what they might be doing at this very same moment, or where they might be headed in traffic, or if they're eating at some of the same restaurants where we shared good conversation.

I pray tonight for Flor in her difficult house keeping duties; I pray for Alan to be strong at work where he makes Chifa and as he might confront temptation daily; I pray for Miguel and Gladys that they're educational pursuits remain a priority; I pray for Corina and Jackie to stay women of God with pure hearts.

Culture has a way of sweeping you off your feet. It can change you and it can challenge you. I miss how exciting life seemed in Peru and how I saw something new each day. I'm charged up to keep those same eyes here in the states where God is clearly moving and as I take part in that. How great it is that God is the same there as He is here!

Management as Ministry

2007-09-25T23:52:00.000-05:00

It is my belief that not very often do people find it romantic to relate organizational administration with the workings of God. However, the past couple years have offered a bit of insight regarding the whole concept of integrating faith and action. Since the time my eyes were opened to the vast needs of individuals in this world, I have found myself swept up in a relentless call to do something about it. This is tough, because I distinctly remember the urgency and passion that hit me all at once, but I had no idea how this was going to happen or by what vehicle God had in mind for such a desire to be executed into action. What's a guy to do with a good heart and a passion, but lacking in direction?

Last week I had the blessing of attending several lectures that pricked at my heart. The theme verse comes from Micah 6:8 "He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God." This automatically put me in an exciting state because it encompasses so much of what I have been trying to understand about God's design for your life and for mine. I have often placed too much weight on the specifics when God is asking for the common. It's so easy to get caught up in a frivolous interrogation of what exactly God would desire of me, but Micah puts it simply!

It's such a beautiful opportunity to see what we do each day in the light of God or as my freshman Bible professors used to say "with Kingdom eyes!". Lectureship helped me see how each of our desires, our gifts, our passions can be effectively used by God if we're willing to submit those to Him, for Him. Praise God for the blessing of being used by Him in an infinite amount of ways!

A cleaning of my head...

2007-09-11T23:46:00.000-05:00

I keep letting lots of time go by between posts these past several weeks. I really can't believe that the month of September is almost half over! Time is flying by right now with the busyness of classes, studying, work, ministry, and friendships. Being back in in the states is a reminder of how laid back life seemed to be in South America this summer. Although I was in two of the largest cities on the continent, there was simplistic feel in the air of Lima and Santiago. I do, however, enjoy the daily happenings here in Abilene, Texas as I get the opportunity to prepare for what God will do through me in the future.

I've had lots of time to reflect and assess the overall experiences we had this summer. It was definitely full of ups and downs and high points and even a few low points. But one thing is for sure...God was glorified and lives were changed. I don't know if I've actually put that into words in this blog in the past, but it's something that's really been on my heart lately. Since we've embarked on the new semester, South America has really been heavy on my heart. I sit back and remember the places I went, the people I met and the culture I experienced, it gives me a sense of joy and peace. I'm not sure if it's just because I'm holding to an unrealistic memory, or because I'm still adjusting to being back, or if that's just the way the Spirit works, but I'm just desperately trying to figure out what to make of it.

I feel like God has brought me closer to him lately. It's strange, but I feel his presence in my life more than I have in a long time. My focus has been somewhat intensified as I seek to understand these experiences this summer and how they relate to where I've been and where I'm going. It's come to the point where I'm ready to stop allowing fear to motivate me to do things, and to start allowing the boldness of God to lead my life. I believe that ridding oneself of fear is a tremendous start to an attempt at living loud for God.

Lots of thoughts, lots of thoughts. I think I mainly just wanted to spill some before they build up to the point of forgetfulness setting in. Well keep praying for the people of Latin America...Chile and Peru...as I look for ways to serve God.

Pray for Peru

2007-08-15T21:49:00.000-05:00

It's been quite a while since I've updated a post or added anything, but my thoughts tonight are with Peru as I heard about a 7.9 Earthquake that hit just off the coast. The center was about 95 miles South of Lima and about 25 miles below the surface. It looks like there's already over a dozen deaths, but that number is likely to rise before morning. Go to www.cnn.com for more info.

Peru is used to this type of seismic activity, but that doesn't change the fact that this was a big one and more people could be affected by it. Today or tonight say a quick prayer for those in Peru and other areas that might be a bit shaken up (literally) by tonight's events. I really hope all my friends in Peru are sleeping soundly this evening. Blessings and Peace.

Last Days & Some Reflections

2007-07-26T15:38:00.000-05:00

I really can't believe that I sit here with just two days left in Peru. We leave on Saturday night for the states. The past 8 weeks have gone by much faster than I had anticipated. The expectations I held before coming here have been surpassed by the experiences I've had. I had no idea that this summer would have gone the direction it went. God has a way of really turning things upside down when you least expect it. It's so funny how I always learn the most whenever I'm the most vulnerable. It seems that this applies to more than just a summer missions experience.

I suppose I'll make the most of the next couple days by a) eating food I can't get in the states, b) savoring the last moments with some of the teens here, and c) reflecting on this amazing summer. I will try my best to give a re-cap on the events of this summer without being a bore with endless words. (I think there's something about that in Proverbs...) Anyway, I'll break it down week by week. Here we go...

Week One: (technically a half week) I left the United States for only the second time in my life for Santiago, Chile where I spent the week seeing this new place. It was freezing cold! I stayed with Kelley Grant and his family with the team that works there. They showed me around the city and got me excited about having such a wonderful introduction to Latin America with such good friends. Went to church and met lots of new people.

Week Two: Went to a retreat that didn't actually occur because of some issues in Buenos Aires with the group of Aggies. However, this gave me some excellent time to spend with Kelley and Julie hearing about their time as missionaries (extremely valuable wisdom to be heard). Spent the days teaching English at many of the local schools and making contacts with the teens for activities that were planned for the evenings. Spent the evenings playing games and doing activities with the youth group and others that came as a result of our time at the schools.

Week Three: Got sick with the virus and stayed in bed for 4 days. Rode the train to Concepcion to survey the city for the possibility of living there in the future. It's really an amazing city that's full of potential for things such as starting a coffee shop, beginning an orphanage, planting a church, etc. Spent some more time with some of the young people from the church before leaving for Lima. Santiago offered some amazing lessons about longterm teamwork on the field. They are a perfect product of what a team can do when they are made to work together. It was such a great experience to spend so much time working with them and learn from what they are doing there.

Week Four: Arrived in Lima at 3am and went to church on the last Sunday that it was meeting in its actual building. I've never been around such a welcoming church that was so eager to make us a part of their family. There were somewhere around 100 people there to celebrate their last time together as one body before branching into 3 cell groups throughout Lima. We spent our first week in Lima going to a few small group meetings during the evenings and spending time with the teens and university aged students. It was great to get to know them as we entered this new place.

Week Five: Again spent the week going to several of the small group bible studies that meet around town. Made plans for the remainder of our time in Lima to go to the orphanage, the jungle (which didn't happen) and to Cusco. Midway through the week we met Mario and stayed with him as we worked with the orphanage (the "community") outside of Lima. Our time at the community was indescribable! Our lives were changed simply by spending a few days with these lovely people.

Week 6: We spent this week again with some of the students such as Miguel, Mikael, Gladys, Alan, Jackie, Karina, etc. They are some of the core group of young people that are involved in the church. We got to go downtown one night with a group of them as they showed us around their home city. They took us to Chinatown, a really neat park on the river, and even to the restaurant that Alan works at to watch a soccer game. We had originally planned to go to the jungle this week to work with several churches in various villages, but we were forced to cancel it because of an unfortunate conflict with the government and the professors.

Week 7: This was one of the most amazing weeks I've ever had in my life. We went to Cusco to see the Inca capital, Machu Picchu, and the ruins that surround the area. It's difficult to describe how amazing it is, but pictures and a few words will have to do. We stayed with some members of the church there and were blessed to experience the hospitality they extended to us. It's so wonderful to see the arms and legs of the body of Christ around the world!

Week 8: Well this is now. We've been back for a few days and have said our good byes to the missionary who went on a trip to a town a few hours from Lima. We've got a few last days to spend reflecting and a few last meals with Alan and some of the other teens. It's been such a blessing to develop relationships with the church here. They are a great group of people who have a flare for following the word of God. Peace.

1 Down, 6 to Go!

2007-07-23T19:48:00.000-05:00

I just had the 6 most amazing days of my life. I can't believe I went to one of the new 7 wonders of the world!! Today we returned from Cusco where we went up to Machu Picchu to see the Inca ruins that have been there for over 500 years. Reid, his brother Joel, a friend from Texas A&M-Kendra, and I went to Cusco and experienced some of the best adventure I've ever known. We saw several different areas of dwellings, spent a day rafting, rode the train to a town with hot springs, rode the bus up to Machu Picchu, and got to experience a very unique culture of this part of Peru. Words seriously cannot express what our eyes have seen at this place. I was one of just 400 people that got to climb Huayna Picchu, which is the mountain you see in the background of all the photos. It gives an amazing view of the ruins. I'll just leave some pictures to give you a glimpse of what we saw the past few days. These are some good ones, but they still can't compare to seeing this place with your eyes. It is truly a wonder of the world! Can't wait to tell you more.

we´re in cusco!!!

2007-07-19T19:32:00.000-05:00

ok, i dont have any time at the moment, but we snuck off to an internet cafe and i wanted to let you know that were officially in Cusco! It´s absolutely gorgeous here and I can´t describe it in words. I promise to post some pictures soon! Tomorrow we´re going rafting down the river and then Satruday we head to Machu Picchu to stay the night at the hot springs and see the sites there.

we spent the entire day seeing the ancient Inca ruins and hiking through tme beautiful mountains. it´s so amazing here! the altitude is killing us and making us feel very out of shape, but we´re having a great time. i can´t wait to share more and post these pictures. peace!

A Night on the Town

2007-07-16T13:03:00.001-05:00

Lima at night is beautiful. It's much nicer than I thought it might be by my impression of other parts of the city. Central Lima is bubbling with people going about their business, shopping, eating, etc. The Plaza de Armas is a much better site at night with the lighting that brings out the intricacy of the architecture.

Yesterday was great because it was a full day with some of the youth from the church. After service, Reid and I went with Alan, Karina, and Jackie to eat some Chifa at the restaurant that Alan works at. It was great food! We stayed there to watch the Copa America final to see Brazil kill Argentina. When that was over, Alan wanted to show us Chinatown, so we rode down to an area that is basically little stores filled with pirated movies and fake name brand clothes. We saw Transformers at a store for only 3 soles, which is less than 1 U.S. Dollar. I didn't get anything. So after that we walked more to downtown and saw the Plaza at night. Then we went down to the river and discovered a pretty cool park that had spots for concerts, eating, and sports. We rode a mini-train through the park that was made for kids, but it was really a blast. It was probably one of the most random days I've had here, but it was good to let some of the guys here show us around and be proud of their city. We got home late and got some rest after such a long day.

We'll spend today and tomorrow finalizing plans for Cusco. We're leaving at 5:30 on Wednesday morning with Reid's brother and another girl from Texas A & M who's going with us. We'll be there for 5 days and back on Monday. I can't wait to see what it's like there, especially now that it's been voted one of the new 7 wonders. Hopefully the education strikes will stop here soon so that everyone will remain safe and things will become calmer around the nation. Tonight we're going to pick up a couple friends from ACU who have been in Paraguay all summer and are staying in Lima for a few days. I'll get back soon with a few stories from the past few weeks during our time here. I should have time later this afternoon. Thanks to all for your comments, prayers, and encouragement! Peace.

Weekend Update

2007-07-12T19:12:00.001-05:00

Well, after a week of reflection and preparation for the coming weekend, a change in plans is in store for the weekend. There is a man named Julio from the church that asked Reid and I to spend a few days with him in the jungle getting to know various tribes and churches that are scattered throughout the jungle of Eastern Peru. This week has been a workout trying to make last minute plans, but it's been great. On Tuesday we bought our ticket for the 18 hour bus ride out of Lima and into the rain forest. We also bought our return flight ticket for Monday night so that we could get back quick enough to go to Lima. I was a little nervous because we found that we were entering a Yellow Fever zone and I haven't had any of the required shots. I decided to go ahead and chance it a take extra insect repellent.

All this changed today....Last night we had dinner with Alan, Jackie, and Carina. When we told them about our plans, they told us that we would be crazy to take this trip. We already knew about a local strike among teachers to demand more pay, but the government wants to require them to take tests. This strike has turned nationwide and has caused many roads outside of Lima to become unsafe with road blocks, etc. Also, this morning, our connections in the jungle called urging us to change our plans because of a relatively large demonstration planned for Monday. All of this combined with a 6.1 earthquake that occurred last night, which happened to have originated in the city of Pucallpa...the exact city we were supposed to go to tomorrow.

I think it's safe to say that this decision has been made for us! If there was any doubt in our minds, then it has been resolved by current events. The good news is, we're going to stay around Lima and take advantage of some extra time with some of the youth. Looks like tomorrow we're headed to MiraFlores to check out some local markets including an Indian Market (to get souvenirs) with Miguel and Gladys. Then hopefully tomorrow night or Saturday we'll cook with Alan (because he works at a Chinese restaurant and I love to cook too!). It'll be great to take the next few days slowly and make the most of our time with them before we head to Cusco. Peace!

"Welcome to our house, We are a community"

2007-07-09T13:50:00.000-05:00

Before I begin you need to know that it is impossible to describe in words what I have experienced over the past several days. I was not prepared for my eyes to see what God showed through the lives the people I met. There are hundreds of stories to be told that I was so blessed to hear during the short time we had to develop relationships. I am seriously having trouble processing all the thoughts that are pouring out of my head right now. This is likely going to be one of the longest entries I will write this summer. I am emotionally exhausted, yet refreshed by the faces and laughter I experienced with 600 children and teens.

Last week we rode 2.5 hours to get just outside of town to a very impoverished section of the city. On the side of a hill sits tiny houses crammed together and only separated by tiny dirt roads. High on the hill sits a tiny community of 600 fatherless children and teens. Many of them have lived there their whole lives and others just a few years or months. There is no clean water and barely enough food to go around, but God continually provides for these precious young people.

It is called "the community" and for good reason. They are a family, they are all each other has. It is important that you know the story behind the pictures and numbers. Many years ago, a man named Miguel took his sick son to the hospital and found no help. He was forced to leave with his dead son in his arms. On his way home, he passed 2 orphan boys on the street corner and offered them a place to stay. The boys stayed with him for a few days that grew into weeks and months. Slowly, more and more kids began coming to him in need. Eventually, it grew into what is now a family of over 600 young people with no other hope. Miguel is one of the most faithful men I have met here. He is the kind of Christian I want to be.

Before we actually entered the place, we walked into the hospital where many kids are ill or injured. Many of them have been injured in car accidents, abused by their parents, or sick because of weak immune systems and most likely malnutrition. There was something distinct about the kind of help being provided here. There aren't many resources, but there is love at the core of the care here.

We first approached a field of kids playing soccer when they surrounded us. They all wanted to shake our hands, hug us, and talk to us. Many of them grabbed on to me and just wanted my arm around them or to sit closely to my body...just to feel my touch. I sat and heard the stories of George, Manuel, Saul, Alexandro, Christian and dozens of others. I will write about these children soon because their stories are powerful. We walked up to one of the 6 or 7 houses where about 40 children live together in each. Most of them share beds with one another and rarely get a shower. We walked into a girls house where they were singing and dancing together. One girl introduced herself..."welcome to our house, we are a community." What a deep concept to grasp! With such sincerity, this little girl taught me what community is and what it looks like in action. My heart sunk because I had never felt so welcomed by anyone before in my life. They asked if we could sing and requested Backstreet Boys, so of course we couldn't resist! It went something like this..."You are my fire, my one desire...." and you know the rest! haha.

Friday was also encouraging because of what we discovered we'd be doing on Saturday. We were walking up the hill to the orphanage when one of the other workers drove by in the van and asked us if we wanted to go to the ocean. What we didn't know is that they were going there to fish to provide food for the next day. We rode down to the beach and walked to the tiny boat. They asked us to step aboard, so we did and they took off into the water! They tiny boat took us to another tiny boat where we prepared it for fishing later that night. To make a very long afternoon there seem shorter, we went back to the community and played some soccer with a bunch of 7-8 year old boys. They learned our names and wanted us on their teams. They've got tons of energy and run around like little rascals. I accidentally kicked one little boy named Luis in the face when trying to make a goal. I kind of made his nose bleed a little, but he came back and was OK. Obviously I felt horrible about myself in that moment. Anyway, we stayed pretty late and Reid played more soccer with the older guys who are amazing and schooled him.

Saturday was the best day of all our time there. We got the privilege of escorting girls to a huge fiesta that we later discovered was their Quinceanera. This day was huge for them, and we got the honor or participating in it with them. Usually the father escorts the girl to the party and has the first dance with their daughter. Well, for these girls', Reid, myself and the other workers filled that void for one night. The whole community made this night a big deal with cakes, music, and dancing for hours. It was an absolute blast. My date for the evening was Magaly. It seemed like she had a blast and I can only hope that this night was perfect for her. Before the party, we took the girls shopping at a market to get some new clothes for their special evening. They were so happy and thankful for the little they were able to get. After taking them back, we went to Mario's place to get cleaned up for the fiesta. Mario took us to get our haircut and a shave (they did an awesome job, i mean we look gooood!) and then went to buy a nice shirt because we didn't have any with us. We danced for about 4 hours and stayed until 1am with them. It was probably some of the most fun I've had in a long time.

It was such a blessing to spend some time with this community. It was beautiful. It's extremely difficult for me to fathom what I have seen the past few days. My heart breaks for them, but it also leaps for joy because of the hope that lives there. I wish that each of you could see what I have seen and meet the people I have met. Many of the children told me that when I left, I should not forget about them. Luz, one of the girls urged me that I have the power to change people by what I have seen. She wanted me to take it and share it with the world and I am seeking the way to do that now. I still need time to process my thoughts, but I will get back soon with some of the stories I noted in my journal and some of the wonderful conversations I had. Peace.

Off to the Orphanage

2007-07-04T21:55:00.000-05:00

Happy 4th of July! The group we're with here in Lima apparently likes Independence Day quite a bit, therefore we had a North American style cook out with burgers (USDA certified beef), hot sauce, and Dr. Pepper (my favorite). Anyway, I didn't expect such festivities, but the group enjoyed it a lot, so I went along with it. We ended the day with a viewing of Independence Day, appropriately. They're still getting used to their time here so I think they needed it. I hope you also had a relaxing day with some time with family and friends.

I'm doing better with the stomach issues. I think I've figured out that it's a bacterial infection that should be wiped out with an antibiotic that I'm planning to take tonight and this week. It looks like we're leaving tomorrow morning to stay and work with the orphanage outside of town for the remainder of the week. They're really excited about Reid and I coming, so I plead for your prayers for our safety and ability to genuinely serve there. I will be back soon with pictures and good news of our time with the children there. We should be back either Sunday or Monday...and if we love it a lot, maybe Tuesday. Hope you have a great week! Peace.

Sick...again!

2007-07-03T16:06:00.000-05:00

This morning I woke up with a fever and some intense stomach cramps. It seems as though at some point over the last several days I ate something that didn't agree with my stomach...probably some bad meat or something. This has of course put me back in bed with only one option: rest. This is much like how I felt in Santiago for those few days, and it is not good. It's just one of the worst feelings to be sick away from home. I guess I just need to be cautious of what I eat and be sure it's cooked right. Anyway, pray that I get better and can get back on my feet so we can do all the stuff we've got planned coming up. So I guess I will just try to get some rest, watch some office episodes and maybe put in a movie until I get to feeling good again. I'll probably still be in bed for a while if anyone wants to skype me or something. Being sick makes you a little homesick, so know that I am thinking about you all. Peace.

The Past Weekend and Upcoming Plans

2007-07-02T15:09:00.000-05:00

Ok, so I woke up on Saturday and my ankle felt about 100 times better than it did Friday night. Thank goodness for either prayer or Advil, or the combination of both. Anyway, that was barely worth the time I spent writing about it. Other than that, we had quite a full and encouraging weekend. On Saturday Reid and I got invited to watch Peru play Venezuela at Miguel and Gladys' house (two of the young people at the church). It was great because we ended up staying all afternoon and until pretty late at night. They fed us dinner and gave us these really good donut type desert things that are amazing. The best part about Saturday night was that after the game Gladys asked us what we thought about Christians and politics...boy was I excited about this one. I have never before been so thankful for Christianity in Culture and my freshman Bible class (especially the part where we had to memorize the main points of each book of the NT). Anyways, it was so refreshing to carry on a conversation with another person about life and about the questions we all have about it. I wish I could tell you more, but there's something indescribable about moments like these.

Yesterday was great at church. We met at the home of Cesar (one of the members) and filled his livingroom. Alot of the youth were there and we all went to lunch afterwards at a Cevicheria. By the way, Ceviche is basically raw fish soaked in Lemon Juice to "cook" it with its acidity. I tasted it, but there's noway I could handle my own dish, so I got some Chifa (a mixture between Peruvian and Chinese). At church we met Mario, who runs the orphanage. He's very excited that we want to spend time with them. He kept telling us how much emotional and sexual abuse these children have encountered and was surprised that we're interested in staying there for a while. I'm so excited because this is really where my heart is. We also met a guy who offered to take Reid and I into the jungle for a few days...we're talking primitive, have to take a boat and only a backpack kind of stuff. Apparently there are churches scattered all through the jungle that meet that no one really knows about. We're still considering this option.

This week it looks like we'll be heading out to the orphanage to stay for several days. I can't wait to get involved there and play with some kids. We'll also be finalizing our plans for the jungle...eesh. We'll also be figuring out when and for how long we're going to Cusco and Machu Picchu. There's also a church there that we might get to spend some time with. In addition to all of this, we really want to continue pursuing time and study with Alan, Gladys, Miguel and others at the church. I hope we continue to share time with them. I'll get back with updates of our plans coming up this week. Keep praying that God guides us and gives us direction for the next 3.5 weeks. Peace!

Today I sprained my ankle

2007-06-29T20:04:00.001-05:00

Today I sprained my ankle and it hurts real bad. This is a close second to the virus that struck in Santiago. A bunch of us went out away from town to a park by a river and while we were playing soccer with the guys, i rolled it on the uneven ground. It was really rocky grass and had little ditches all through it. It wasn't bad until we sat down for a couple hours for dinner and when we got home from the ride back, I could barely walk. So now I'm stuck in this chair with a throbbing ankle. Luckily, the father of the family that is with us is a neurosurgeon...not joking. He checked it out and said it's a sprain, but still doesn't change the fact that it's a huge pain in the butt. Ok, that's all. Here's a couple pics from today. Did I mention that Lima is in a desert? Oh, and we ate at a restaurant where they had these Incan dancers and live music. It was a dive into the rich culture. Tonight we're just chillin and tryin to get a hold of Mario, who runs the orphanage. Peace.

A Bit of Encouragement

2007-06-28T12:31:00.000-05:00

Hey friends. We've been in Lima about 5 days and are enjoying it very much. On Sunday we attended church where we were warmly welcomed by all of the congregation. On Monday we went to help move things from the church building because they've made the decision to split into 3 cell groups that will now meet in homes. Tuesday was great because we finally got a chance to catch up on rest and sleep in a little bit. We got to talk with the missionary a little bit about the upcoming week. Reid got to go to a small group meeting on Tuesday night and came back encouraged because he got to participate in the group. We're slightly limited on transportation space, so I am going to one tonight to get that experience.

We are still awaiting some time with Paul (the missionary) to get us connected with the man that runs the orphanages and some other children's homes, so yesterday Reid and I went downtown to see some of the historical sites. It was again a beautiful site to see such architecture and breath in the busy culture down there. I think this is so cool...inside the old Catholic church we toured, we saw the remains of Francisco Pizzaro. We studied him in my Civ class last semester and he was a Spanish Conquistador that established Lima in the 1500's. So Cool! I finally have some pictures of Lima and can't wait to give you some more of the people that we'll be growing close to this summer. We've been aching to eat some local Peruvian food and found a popular restaurant downtown called Don Juan's. I got Lomito Saltado (grilled steak, onions, peppers, tomatoes, fries with rice...all stir fried together). It was amazing and I can't wait to eat more here.

So last night is the best part though. A small group of the youth group meets in the apartment each Wednesday night and we went to it. There were about 8 or 9 teens that showed up to spend time playing games, talking, singing, and spending time in devotion together. It was a huge encouragement to be a part of that time and get to know Alan, Miguel, Gladys and the others. They have great hearts and it's a blessing to witness their new flare to shine in the world. I can't wait for more times like this. It's still difficult to learn Spanish and I get a little frustrated because I want to know it so fast, but I need to realize that it'll take time and I won''t be a pro overnight. Ok, I will get back soon with more updates and stuff like that. Love you guys. Pray for us....peace.
This is why we don't ride the buses in Lima
The Catholic church downtown

Flashback to Concepcion

2007-06-26T14:31:00.000-05:00

As I sit here in Lima, thoughts of our time in Chile run through my head. Last week Reid and I got the chance to take the train a few hours south to Concepcion. This city is situated on the coast and nestled just into tree-filled hills of southern Chile. If the city itself isn't enough for you, the ride through the hills along the Andes will rock your world. It's comparable to the Northeastern United States and if you didn't know it, you'd think you were in Oregon. The city is made up of about 1-1.5 million people with a centralized downtown and surrounding areas where people live. We stayed in local hotel and spent most of our time scouting out downtown and the University of Concepcion. There seems to be a great need for a revival among young people in this city. I wish I could have seen more of the city, but simply getting to stay there for a couple days and eat some good food will have to suffice.

I wanted to leave you with a few pictures of our time there. Like I said, it's gorgeous. I love that it's city with millions of people, but also that you can so easily get away and be in midst of God's creation.

As far as other things go, we're in Lima and getting adjusted to living here. We're in an area of town called Las Molinas. It seems to a nice little upper-middle class zone with all the comforts of home, such as Starbucks, a movie theatre, a mall, KFC, and Pizza Hutt. There are also some smaller, local establishments that Reid and I like to frequent. This morning, and by morning I mean around noon, we went to a local cafe that had WiFi, got some good coffee and had a sandwich. It's nice to meet locals and have little conversations with them in the taxi's or at the restaurants. I have to admit, it's quite nice to have the Starbucks so close, but it's also kind of a distraction because it's so comfortable and reliable. I really want to get into the local culture and look forward to find ways to do so. I also need to learn Spanish really bad. Being around others who are slightly better at it doesn't help because you can fall back on them so easily for help. I want to learn more, now!

Hopefully today we'll find out a little more that we'll be doing throughout our time here. I have so many questions and hopes. Will we be with a small group? Which of the three cell churches will we be meeting with? Will we get to spend time with the orphanage we heard about? Etc...But keep praying that God guides us through the rest of the summer and that we are used for His purposes in the best ways possible. I'll get back soon with more pictures of Lima. Peace.

Finally in Peru!!

2007-06-24T20:29:00.000-05:00

After a 3 hour flight that was supposed to begin at 10:30 but was delayed an 2 hours, we finally arrived at the Lima airport at about 3am this morning. We flew on a Brazilian airline that offered some cheap tickets with a side of turbulence for almost the entire duration of the flight. It wouldn't be the worst thing if we never flew with them again. Anyway, the missionary and the guys we are staying with were there waiting for us (thankfully) and we made it across town to get a few hours sleep before church this morning. It was a huge encouragement to go worship with the congregation. There seems to be a large group of young people that is very strong. We don't really have any idea what we'll be doing here yet, but we're supposed to get all of that worked out tomorrow morning with Paul and the other people that are working with us this summer. Apparently the church's last meeting as a whole was today, and they are splitting into three congregations because of distance and rent issues. The congregation was so welcoming. Everyone was great at learning your name and starting conversations with us. I can already tell that they're going to be great. I'm excited to find out the direction of the summer!

After church today we went to eat at a wonderful restaurant called San Antonio's that seems to be in the gringo part of town, like much of what we did in Santiago. I got some kind of terriaki sandwich and we went to Starbucks after that was next door. After that we went to the supermarket to get groceries. I FOUND DR PEPPER!!! You should have been there to see how happy I was.

I should explain who we're working with this summer. In May, a group of 6 students from the Sunset Bible Institute in Lubbock arrived with a commitment of spending 2 years in Lima with this church as part of their missions training. The 3 girls and 3 guys have two apartments here (where Reid and I are staying) and it looks as though we will be working closely with them. Their Spanish is basically as rough as mine and we all have much to learn together. Anyway, I will hopefully be posting some pictures soon. We don't have internet access at our apartment, but here at the missionary's home we do, and apparently the group spends quite a bit of time in cafes (and Starbucks) using wifi. I can't wait to get back soon with more news about our time here. Peace!

this can't be good...

2007-06-16T21:23:00.000-05:00

Hola mis amigos. Things in Chile are going well with the exception of a one minor issue. For the past week, I've had no problems whatsoever with any food or drink here. But this afternoon at lunch that all changed. To make a long story short, I think I've caught this stomach virus thing that Kelley gave to Reid and Reid gave to me. I slept most of the afternoon and I'm still having trouble keeping water down. I really hope it gets better soon so I can truly make the most of my time here.

Other than that, things are going quite well here. I have loved doing things with the AFCer's here each day. We've spent each day at schools with children teaching English through games, conversation, and interaction. It's been a blessing to see these children and get to know them. We used this time to make contacts with local youth to come in the afternoons to play more games and get acquainted with the church. The evenings usually consist of hanging out with the Jovenes and youth group at the church building. On Thursday night we went to a para-church (made up of an interdenominational campus ministry out of Georgia) They had a really raw worship time, a meal, and time to just kick it with local university students. Very cool outreach.

We got a great deal of rain here this week, which equals mountain snow. On Friday morning, we awoke to a breathtaking view of the mountains that surround the city. You can't see them through the smog unless the rain pushes it away. This clear morning was a great encouragement for me. I will post some pics. Anyway, I hope to go skiing with the Aggies on Monday or Friday and also spend this week serving the local people alongside them. I will get back soon! Peace.

The Aggies are here

2007-06-12T22:17:00.000-05:00

Long story short about the Aggie retreat...they had major travel issues in Buenos Aires, thus delaying their arrival to Santiago by about 24 hours due to horrendous fog and a radar outage. So this sent us (the Grants, Hatchers, Emorys, Reid and I) back to Santiago from the retreat center, canceling the retreat. They finally arrived last night at 10 and we spent the day with them as they had an orientation and devotionals, etc. I will tell you that I've only spent about 10 hours with them and I'm already feeling as very good friends to many of the group. There's 18 of them and I already knew Sam and another guy from ACU with the group named Alex Castro. It's funny that there's also another guy on the trip that transfered to A&M last Spring from ACU that lived right below me in the fall and went to Southern Hills and I had never met him. Funny that you sometimes have to travel to South America to meet people from the same town as you in the states. Anyway, just wanted to let you know that I am greatly enjoying my time here surrounded by these sick people (the Aggies) that possess something strangely addicting....transfer, eh?

As far as other things go, we spent the evening having dinner and conversing with the Jovenes (college aged students). It has been a huge blessing to spend time with them, hear their stories, share my story and also help each other learn one another's languages. I sat and talked with Paloma about her going to law school and participating in a major political uprising as a high school student last year. I also got to hang out with Mauricio who is very active at the church here, and he's been an incredible helper for me to learn Spanish because he's so good at English. I love it here and I'm having a wonderful time. I can't wait to see what else happens.

No entiendo!

2007-06-10T16:14:00.000-05:00

I love it here already. It's been only 3 days and I think I could live here. We've spent the past 4 days or so getting acquainted with the city. This has given us the chance to ride the Metro (subway) and take Transantiago (the bus) all around to various parts of the city like downtown and other shopping places. The coolest part of the city is that there's people everywhere. No matter where you are, there's people walking the streets getting wherever it is they're going. I can't wait to tell you more, but I wanted to first update you with some picture of some sites. Today we went to church and it was an incredible experience. It's a blast here, but also really amazing. I can't wait to learn more Spanish so I can carry on conversations with people without looking incompetent. Anyways, here's some pics and I'll get back soon. We're headed out to a retreat with the Aggies in a few minutes and I have to get going. We'll be back on Tuesday or Wednesday. Peace to you all.

Above: Plaza de Armas in downtown Santiago.
Right: The Catholic church at Plaza de Armas.
Left: Plaza with statue of
Simone Bolivar, who liberated
Chile.

Left: inside the church at the Plaza

I'm here...or there!!!

2007-06-07T20:47:00.000-05:00

I'm finally on South American soil. After an overnight flight of 9.5 hours, I arrived in Santiago. Reid and Kelley were there to pick me up after I walked awkwardly through a crowd of taxi drivers who desperately wanted my business. I had an interesting encounter with one who followed me around asking if I was with the Disney on Ice group...which of course I was not. Anyway, our plane was only half full, which gave me my own row on the window side. I probably slept a total of 2 hours off and on, and am now still awake after about 48 hours of no sleep, so I'm a little delirious. I can't describe the view coming into the city. Flying south over the Pacific Ocean, I saw the sunrise over the tall Andes Mountains to the East. It was a glorious view until we got low enough to enter the smog that filled the valley that the city sits in. I'll post pictures soon!

In the city, we drove around seeing different parts and running errands. We spent the morning at the church building watching the Office, then went to lunch at a Peruvian restaurant (how appropriate), then went to the mall to get some soccer (Football) shoes because I don't have any (nor do I have any soccer skills, but will hopefully fix that soon too). The mall here is ridiculous. It's got stores that I'ver never heard of and alot of upscale ones...Apple, Nike, Penguin, etc. There is definitely alot of diversity though. Driving back from the airport I noticed tiny houses and apartments that are far beyond decay in anything I've seen in the U.S.

My time here is going to be great. We'll be staying with Kelley and Julie and getting familiar with the city, meeting people, learning lots of Spanish, and hanging with the Aggies. Please keep praying for God to teach us new things each day, for my diligence in learning Spanish, and more importantly, for me to get outside my comfort zone. I've realized that lots of missionary work revolves around simply being yourself and not being afraid of what people think of you- and doing it with passion. We'll see what God does this summer! Peace.

Good News

2007-05-29T17:54:00.000-05:00

Need I say more?

After just 13 weeks of waiting, I finally received this valuable piece of identification in the mail. Hopefully I won't have to deal with stuff like this for a looooong time. Just thought you might want to see the look on my face when I got it. I'll get back with another update soon. It looks like I'm set to leave on June 6th. Peace.

A much Needed Update for you...

2007-05-24T15:27:00.000-05:00

It's been a while, hasn't it? Probably too long, but it seems like each day has something new to offer in the world of this trip. Here's how things are looking as of now: After spending the past two weeks on hold, calling senator's offices, and faxing personal information to random people from congress, still no passport. I received a call on Monday afternoon from one of these offices saying that it had finally been finished and it should arrive soon, but with my plane leaving tomorrow, the risk of missing it is too great, so i made arrangements today to reschedule my departure for June 7, 2007. In addition to this, I had a doctor's appointment Monday to follow up on my anxiety/irregular heartbeat/stress/whatever and the doctor actually recommended that I stay home a few exrta days to finish a couple extra tests he wanted to run. What's so weird though, is that the above phone call from the senator's office came right as we were discussing the doctor visit and the probably-smarter-idea of leaving late. So, just as I ruled out one dilema, in comes another. But after spending lots of time in prayer and thinking about the best option, I feel at peace about the decision to wait and leave next week.

Wow, as you can see, it's been rather difficult to decipher where the voice of God truly is. The trade-off for taking care of business in Dallas while the group leaves for the trip is relatively obvious. I've spent a year meeting and praying with them, and it seems like maybe God's telling me to slow down. I would have loved to spend this week viewing new cities with great people but for some reason, things have not worked out for this to happen. I'll also have to make a 9.5 hour flight to Santiago alone when I actually do leave. I hope this time at home will let me figure out all of this medical junk and also get my passport in time to leave. I feel like I've been through some kind of storm with all of these plans going back and forth, but I'm really hoping that this one will work out.

So, what's next? I don't know. I need to not be regretful of this decision and be confident in the fact that I've got to take care of my medical issues. I've also got to understand that the passport situation was almost completely out of my hands and that I did all I could do. I can also spend some more time with people who I won't see for a while! I need to make the most out of the place God has put me. I'll get back soon after I speak with Gary, Wes, Reid, and Nikki. Peace out.

Happier Thoughts

2007-05-17T15:01:00.000-05:00

Today I went to hang out with Cassie's 3rd grade class. I really enjoy those kids. What's better though, is seeing quality education in action. I think being around kids makes you happier. Octavion is probably my favorite kid in the class because he's so freakin cool. The best part of it is that he really knows he's cool, but he innocently plays it off like he doesn't. The doctor told me a couple weeks ago to find something that makes you feel like you're in 3rd grade again. I think sitting inside an elementary school classroom can help with such ideas. It's so weird to think of random times from those days of your childhood. I was always the moderately-smart-nerd-that-sucked-up-to-the-teacher. Most of my elementary school days were joyful and others, not so joyful.

Anways, today was good because it's been about a week since I've done much of anything that's productive. As I gear up to leave next week, I've realized that I only have a week left! This presents a problem because there are so many people I want to see and things I want to do before I can't see those people and do those things for 9 weeks. Things like going to On The Border, getting a snowcone from TC Shaved Ice, having lunch with old friends and Mom and Dad, driving my car down 635 just to get a rush, making random trips to Wal-Mart to get junk I really don't need at 11pm at night, followed by some fries from Wendy's, seeing the Dallas skyline and knowing I'm close to home, and probably best of all...sitting on the couch watching a movie.

Today I decided to not mention my passport issues anymore. I'm giving it to God to take care of and make the decisions for me. "What's supposed to happen will happen"...someone told me a couple days ago, and it's so true. If I'm forced to spend a few extra days at home, then fine, I've becoem OK with that. In fact, that might even be kind of fun. Who knows. I'm just gonna enjoy the next few days I have at home with good people and take a load off, rather than pack on stress over something I really have no control over. On a much more happier note...this weekend I got a new rain jacket from REI that really rocks.

Jeremy's pissed

2007-05-15T17:45:00.000-05:00

That's right. This is about to be a bash America session. I hope I can hold my tongue, but it's not looking to bright. Today, I've spent a total of 2 and a half hours either on hold, re-dialing over and over again, or talking to representatives that offer no help whatsoever to me. So today I called the Passport Office again to check my status, and no word from Houston. They were supposed to reply to my expedite request and haven't done so, so my forms are still sitting there in Houston. So when I asked them what I should do next, they said to go ahead and plan on going to Houston and that they'd transfer me to the appointment line. I'm thinking this could work out, but after about a half hour talking to my little friend (the automated computer system), he gladly informed me that the next available appointment time was May 29th, 2007. Thanks a lot! I'm so frustrated right now that this is taking this long. It's not supposed to happen like this. The best they could do was offer to request a will-call from Houston when it's actually ready so that I can drive and pick it up (M-F 8-3). This has got to be the most-complicated thing I've ever done. Ok, so I'm going to spend the next few days sulking about the tardiness of the government systems, while you can say a prayer for me. Thanks!

Houston, here I come!?

2007-05-14T13:14:00.000-05:00

What? As strage as this sounds, it's true. I figured out today that it doesn't pay to be cheap. I had no idea that 11 weeks ago it would have been much smarter to expedite my passport rather than paying for regular service. Keep in mind that it's not supposed to take longer than 10 weeks, and here we are at week 11. After spending several hours on hold with the State Department, they informed me that there's no way to guarantee that it would make it to me in time for my departure (10 days from now). All the operator could tell me was that it's still in process in Houston and that I could call there to set up an appointment to try and get it. If this wasn't enough, there's always the threat of it actually getting shipped in time and lost in the world of ACU mail services. Ya, I think I'll take the chance and go to Houston. I have to admit, part of me wants to take the trip to get some driving time in before I can't for 2 months.

Plus, don't tell anyone, but I can also swing by Impact to say whassup to some of my Houston buds. I mean I'm not gonna complain.

It's so good to be home. There's something about it that's not like anywhere else in the world. It might be because I know I won't be here for a loooong time, but it just feels really nice to relax and have a break from school. I over-stressed my self way too much this semester and this break could not have come at a better time....except maybe a month ago. Ha. I do miss my friends and I'm starting to be all nostalgic and stuff, but I get these random moments of excitement, like when I listen to a good song in the car and I picture myself taking off on the plane or something. Then it kind of dies off because I realize I'm actually leaving really soon.

So last night I went to the Village Church to hear Matt Chandler. It's a really neat church that has a lot going on for them. It was really refreshing to be at a place where the worship is so raw and real. They played a video of him speaking because there's like 6 services, but it was so weird because it was life-size and looked like he was actually standing on the stage or something. He talked about mothers and women and nurturing. I would highly recommend downloading the podcast.

I'm going to Peru

2007-05-07T23:51:00.000-05:00

Today I was driving down the road on the way back from lunch when something struck me. This was one of those moments that pierces your insides and sends adrenaline through your body. It was a revelation. I realized for the first time that I am actually leaving the country in 2 and 1/2 weeks. It came out of nowhere when I thought to myself, "I'm going to Peru...I'm going to Peru?...I'm going to Peru!!!" I think I've finally moved past the anticipatory stage to the pure ecstatic phase. I still have no idea what to expect, but I know for sure that I'm ready for some adventure and excitement in my life. All of these thoughts came just in time for finals week when I have to take 4 tests, pack my life into my car, and say some last good-byes. I don't know how to describe it other than to say that it's an inner-peace that's much needed. I find it ironic that my first impression of Latin America will be based on the city of La Paz...or if you don't know much Spanish..."The Peace". I don't even know much about the history of this place, but I'm sure of this: As God's peace is being restored to this hurting world, it's also falling on the lives of individuals in real ways. I hope God will show me peace in La Paz.

Heck, I don't know...maybe today was so good because I didn't have class, I got a big test out of the way, I went to exercise for the first time in a long time(killed my muscles, but decided I'm getting a membership at Hendrick when I get back in the fall), and there's not all that much ahead of me this week. I'd like to think it's because the stress is being wiped away as I allow God to fill those gaps. This great day was thrown into a different direction when I called the State department to check the status of my passport, only to find that it was still being processed...after 10 weeks! They told me to call back in a few days to see where things stood, and the lady kindly left the conversation reminding me that there was no way to tell if it'd make it by May 25th. Oh great...But hopefully my patience will last and God will pull through.

Let's try this one more time

2007-05-04T15:00:00.000-05:00

Here we go again. It's been about a year since my last post, but there's a ton going on in life that needs to be shared. The summer is here and it's about to get crazy. My plane leaves in 3 weeks from DFW for a summer that will hopefully be life changing. I can't wait to see what God has in store for us. Last summer was incredible and I didn't expect it to be that way at all. I think God has a way of throwing things at you unexpectedly. I think it's possible to limit what he can do in the world. Sometimes I do that. I hope I don't do that this summer. My main objective at this point is to keep an open mind to what God will do in others' lives and in my own. I've never gone anywhere like this before and I'm so eager to jump into it, but I also want to be cautious to see what God is showing me and not just what my eyes see.

So, the summer will go like this...exactly three weeks from today, I leave from DFW for La Paz and El Alto, Bolivia. I'll be traveling with a forming team, and good friends, Wes and Ellen, who have become like family, Reid, who is pretty much my brother, and Deanna, who is a girl who supposedly lives in Colorado, but I've never met her. Haha! We'll spend just 2 short days there surveying the city for the possibility of long term work there. Keep in mind that we fly into this capitol city that sits between 11,000 and 13,000 ft. Yes, if you're wondering, that's higher than many of the peaks of the Rocky Mountains in Colorado. I'm gasping for a breath just thinking about it. (I've started running quite a bit here in Abilene to prepare for this physically demanding portion of the trip.) After La Paz, we'll head to Concepcion and Temuco, Chile for the same purpose. After our week-long survey trip, Reid and I will spend 3 weeks in Santiago, Chile with the Grants and some others at their church. Hopefully we'll be able to learn a ton of Spanish there and stay with a local family to get immersed into the culture. I've always been interested in culture in general and the idea that people can be so different but still live in the same small world. After spending June in Santiago, we'll begin our actual internship in Lima, Peru where we'll be doing some bible studies and working with an orphanage.

Ok, so I'm beyond excited now. Here's what you can do: PRAY! Pray that God protects us on this trip. Pray that God challenges us on this journey. Pray that my heart is open to hearing the voice of our Creator. Pray that lives will be changed and that a glimpse of the Kingdom will be seen. Pray for adventure and peace as we go to new places. I'm thankful for God and his blessing on this trip through his faithful people. I'll try hard to keep updated as this thing comes together. Peace!

This is me

2006-08-14T15:18:00.000-05:00

Well this is a first. I never thought I would be the kind of person to have a blog. At first I was OK with this, but as I read some posts of a few folks aound Texas, I began to ask myself why. I think the biggest reason I've never gotten one is mainly that I really think that no one would want to read it. Why would anyone want to read the thoughts from my head? I have basically no more knowledge or insight than any other 20 year old out there, so why should I waste my time? But I came across one man's blog, who I will not disclose at this time, that really stuck out to me. I was searching for some info on the Central Dallas Ministries site, when I came across this man's blog. Just a few days into his posts, I saw some comments from people who I know of either at ACU, or from other Christian institutions. The posts from some of these guys blew my mind. I had no idea there was that kind of passion in the souls of people all around me. Ok, I'm set and I'm getting a blog.

There is a deeper meaning to the reason I really got one, however. It will be helpful to know the way my mind is functioning at this point in time. I just spent the summer in Houston, Texas working with the Impact Houston Church in downtown. After this summer, I am a new man. I have no idea how, but my worldview has been completely skewed from what it was before. I'm sure there is plenty that happened this summer that contributes to this, but one thing is certain, life is different. Ok, so when I used to waste my time by watching TV or chatting away online, I never got anything done. I've got 2 weeks before I have to be back in Abilene, so as I learned this summer, every minute is valuable...so I should make the most of it. I'm back in big-D, so I'm going to go on a quest for something I've always known about, but never done anything about...here we go.

First of all, I was surprised to find out the amazing need that lies in my own back yard...literally. I live exactly 13.03 miles from downtown Dallas. (thats app. 18 minutes going the speed limit...ha!) Ya, that's right, my family resides in a cute little suburban neighborhood that traces back to when my grandparents couldn't take the demographical change of their Dallas neighborhood back in the 1960's and escaped with the mass of white flight to the suburbs. I attend a large, relatively conservative church. This church was a wonderful place to be raised and has basically always had its priorities in the right place. God is always glorified by all this church does, but I often wonder, how much more could God be glorified if we could just do this, or that. The church is very comfortable in the "middle-of-the-road" reputation that it so proudly boasts. One must know that the neigborhood demographics have changed quite a bit since it was planted 50 years ago by a church which has recently shut its doors for the last time. The church building stands as a huge fortress that rises above the surrounding businesses and houses. It's really been a great experience for me that led me to ACU and helped instill the passions of my own heart, but I've learned so much the past year. Back to my initial issue...my location. My hometown is lovely. Sure, it's got its problems like any city, but for the most part, it's a safe, comfortable, and affordable place to reside. This summer I was once asked by a fellow intern, "Why did you choose Houston to come to? Aren't there any places to go up in Dallas?" I was struck by this question because it had never been asked of me before. I didn't know what to say. I later found out about a ministry in Dallas that I had heard of, but never actually pursued. It had never occured to me that there are some of the same people within 13 miles of my house that I could have been serving all my life. Sure, I'm only 20, but that never stopped anyone from doing much, right? It's troubling to me that I've grown up this close to a major city and never done a flipping thing about it, not even prayed!!

Ok, so what do I do? Well first of all, I'm going downtown to CDM tomorrow to see what it's all about so I can actually become a part of the organization program. Secondly, I'm going to spend time in prayer for this city and the hurting people all around me. Houston was great; even so great that I'm pretty sure I want to live there for the rest of my life, loving those people. But there is just something wrong about saying I'm a part of this amazing ministy in Houston, and not giving it a single thought elsewhere. I'm a hypocrite. Heck, it's even in Abilene, where I go to school. There are plenty of people around who are dying, from hunger, from poverty, from a failed education system, even from a lack of support and care from a loving parent. And what am I doing? I am caught in the flow of leeching onto whatever Christian program i can find to satisfy my rich, white guilt, the whole time dying inside because it's lacking the fire of Christ that I profess to possess...but I don't! We should be careful what we do and why we do it. We've got to be intentional with our lives, not just living from one moment to the next- like I've done for way too long.

So I'm starting this blog as a reminder to put my beliefs into action...and to see what thoughts happen to flow from my contemplative head. I've got to go set the rest of this up now.